It's been a long week. As much as I've attempted to numb myself from the heartache I'm feeling, still I cry. Today I sat at my desk and it was as if the floodgates sprung a major leak. The more my mind got quiet was the more I heard his voice. And more than his voice, I heard the words that came out of his mouth.
My relationship has ended. It hurts like crazy but it has to get better. Consider this my rock bottom for now. The Creator has a plan for me even if I don't have a clue as to what it is, I have to keep the faith that everything will work out for the better.
When we get our hearts broken, most often we tend to revert into our defense patterns. Mine this time around almost cost me my sanity. I learned that it's okay to not be strong all of the time. It's okay to feel the hurt and work through it as oppose to avoiding it. All week long I've been avoiding.
Today I told my ex that if we are to be friends, I can't interact with him right away. Until I get past my attachment to him, I'll have thoughts of getting him back. I'm not getting any younger so once and for all I have to learn how to heal and take care of me!
Til next time....
Peace
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